Have you noticed how, you can only recognize how certain things happened the way they did only if you look back at your life. It’s impossible to connect the dots looking forward, but profoundly moving to reflect on how each decision, each interaction, each step we’ve taken up till this very second, is all connected. Incredible.
Since the last time I posted, I’ve graduated from school, my cousin got married, my parents are doing well alhumdulillah, my sisters are doing great with school and life in general, I know what raf‘ nasb and jarr mean, I started working and got promoted to a supervisor role .. so many changes. So many openings.
Thinking of Allah’s name Al Fattah – The Opener. Life wouldn’t be complete if we never experienced darkness, challenges, struggles, and hardship. One of the fundamental experiences of life is to go through the darkness so we can experience the true beauty and mercy of light. When Allah (seemingly) closes a door or makes something (seemingly) difficult, we run to Him and we remember Him (swa) sitting, standing, lying down, and make constant mention of Allah, and Allah subhanahu wata’ala reminds us of this many times over in the Qur’an. When that same door, or a different source of blessings is opened for us, those nights worth of prayers, the incessant du’as, the regular adhkar and charity .. to what level does it continue? So even in something that is an apparent opening, such as a new job, relationship, a big exciting change in life that seems positive, we must take steps to reflect and acknowledge if it’s truly an opening in the sense that it is opening more ways for us to get closer to Allah subhanahu wata’ala, or if it’s somehow distancing us from that which is most important.
May Allah subhanahu wata’ala, out of His infinite mercy and wisdom forgive us of our shortcommings, and make every opening, an opening towards what He subhanahu wata’ala pleases, ameen.