A sincere du’a request for my mother.
Please keep her in your du’as. She went in for a hernia repair procedure last Tuesday and is still in the hospital. As soon as the anesthesia wore off, she had a lot of trouble breathing. After 12 hours of exertion, the doctors sedated her and put her on a ventilator to make her more “comfortable” (I really don’t like when they use that word). Ayesha and I were with her the last few days watching her numbers fluctuate on the screen. Alhumdulillah, her breathing is better but she had a high fever last night and minor things keep coming up. At this point, they’re hoping she can pass the vent. trial by breathing on her own for 2 hours. If she can do that in the next couple of days, they’ll move her to intermediate care and inshaAllah she’ll be home in a no more than a week.
More than my mother, I’m worried about my father. I’ve never seen him this stressed out. Even during his 4 years of heart surgeries, he smiled and remained hopeful. He’s still very optimistic alhumdulillah, but his face says so much more. He hasn’t slept properly in a few days and he goes to the hospital as soon as he wakes up. This is concerning because the fatigue and distress can be more problematic for his health, which has been progressing very well over the last couple years alhumdulillah.
It’s hard. But each person in my home has only increased in ‘ibadah of Allah, meaning that this is just a passing trial inshaAllah. Aminah came to me last night, cried her heart out and said that she feels like Abbu has taken Ammi’s place in that she used to care for us and comfort us when Abbu was in the hospital, and now he’s doing that. After talking to Aminah, I went to see Ayesha in the other room. Waterworks, to say the least. SubhanAllah, I always remember Imam ash-Shafi’ee’s words along the lines of .. Allah can change a person’s situation in the blink of an eye. Just a few days ago, I went shopping with Ammi, organized her room, and talked to her about my MSW plans. Seeing her on a vent is probably the last thing I thought I’d ever have to witness. But inshaAllah, I keep telling myself it’s just a delayed recovery. Reading the Seerah always helps me through these things, and it seems to be the perfect means of coping in a positive way alhumdulillah.
There’s something so beautiful about marriage. SubhanAllah, relationships between brothers and sisters might even break or fade after some time, but the bond between a husband and wife is so powerful, so sincere. As love grows between a husband and a wife, it’s no longer about the attraction or infatuation. It turns into a matured feeling of love that translates into genuine care and support. I’m seeing so many parallels between Abbu’s reaction to this situation and how Ammi dealt with Abbu’s surgeries in the past. Wallahi, I don’t have words to describe immense mawadda and rahma Allah places between a husband and wife. Another great miracle of Allah.
May Allah make us of those who don’t let out a breath except that they thank Him, subhabhu wata’ala for it. .. Of those who constantly make mention of Allah’s blessings, His attributes, His Anbiya and Awliyaa. May we use our health, wealth, and time in Allah’s way and only carry out good deeds with the hope of seeing His face, jalla wa’ala. Ameen.
I try to keep this blog detached from who I am as a person by means of my (failed) alias and writing about things that have little to do with my personal life, but I make exceptions sometimes because you all have helped me through a lot. I don’t know many of you, but your kind words of encouragement and support mean the world. May Allah bless each and every one of you and grant you the best in dunya wal akhira. Ameen.
Allahu Akbar Kabira. Walhamdulillahi Katheera. Wa SubhnAllahi Bukratan Wa Aseela. Laa ilaha il Allahu Wahdah. Sadaqa Wa’da. Wa Nasara ‘Abda.