I am no longer a Nurayni Rookie Alhudmdulillah! :) I have my fourth Al Maghrib notebook, yay. If you haven’t already had the chance to take Precious Provisions, I would highly recommend it (like any other class). Though you may already know most of the things that are discussed in the class, it’s nice hear all the evidences and proofs for why we do what we do or don’t do. I heard a number of people saying that they weren’t going to take this class because they knew they couldn’t apply what the Shaykh would tell them. I was sad to hear that because that means it would not have made a difference if they took the class or didn’t, because they already knew what they should be doing. Khair, may Allah guide all of us and make us steadfast.
To be honest, my main motivation for taking the class (besides the fact that I had to) was because of the niqab issue. It’s always been a question mark in my mind. I wore it a few times a couple summers ago and I felt a lot more ‘me’ in it but it never became a permanent thing. Unfortunately, the topic wasn’t discussed in much detail which may have been appropriate because of the diversity of people in the crowd, but still I was hoping there would be a clear cut answer (hah). Knowing that the Sahabiyat wore niqab is always the first thing that comes to mind when I think about why I should or shouldn’t wear it. But then I also put random conditions on myself such as: I’ll wear it after I finish Al Huda, or after I make tahajjud a regular habit, or after I can go one month without missing a prayer, or after I memorize Qur’an, and a whole bunch of other things. Is that shaytan talking to me or do my conditions make sense? I don’t know. What scares me though is that I know a lot of sisters who have taken off their niqab after some time, and that may have been a good decision for them…Allah knows best, but I find it a little unusual.
During the breaks, lots of comments were made about certain rulings being too strict. I see where these people are coming from, but seriously…we’re talking about the Kalam of Allah, there’s really no room to add or subtract based on our whims…I mean who are we to say anything?! I honestly felt some parts of the course were getting too liberal and it made me somewhat uncomfortable but I guess that’s just my culture speaking. Last semester, one of my friends and I were walking to class and she randomly says to me: “You know ____, you’re too conservative for your own good”. Obviously, I was little offended by her remark but I didn’t show it and moved on. This class helped me realize that maybe my friend was right. Maybe I need to be a little more calm and realistic and see things from a different lens before establishing a concrete opinion on something. I mentioned it earlier too, but I’m slowly realizing that I’m going through that ‘overzealous young Muslimah’ phase and I’m sure that with time, it will pass and InshaAllah, i’ll be a little more wise at the end of it. Al Maghrib, Al Huda, and DS are all facilitating the process for me Alhumdulullah.
p.s.: take the class! :)